# Hanya Kawan

assalamualaikum w.b.t dan selamat bermalam. ihik!



aku menulis kali ini nyata sekali bukan baru lepas tengok cerita lakonan Hans dan Ella. aku lebih menjurus kepada satu diorama muda-mudi yang baru cuba untuk kenal dunia.


aku kenal dia. rapat hingga aku rasa aku lebih merasa kasih kakak kepada adik. yang mudah untuk aku cerita, bergelak dan berkongsi. tidak kurang juga membuli.


tapi nyata, di saat aku menjerit terlolong menyatakan "AKU SEDIA UNTUK MOVE ON!!!" seakan didengari dia. dia mula menyatakan perasaannya. tentang jodoh itu semua.


AB : awak dah sembuh belum?
CRZ : err. entah. dahlah kot.?
AB : kalau belum, saya boleh bagi ubat?
CRZ : hehe. tak apa. mahu nikmati hidup dengan begini hari-hari. senang.
AB : saya target umur 25 mesti jumpa jodoh. tak mahu lambat-lambat.
CRZ : apa yang dikejarkan? biar lambat asalkan selamat. entah yang dijumpa mula-mula menjadi yang dibenci akhiran cerita nanti.
AB : awak seakan kaunselor. tahu cerita saat cerita baru dimula.

AB : kalau boleh, saya mahu seperti awak. awak sangat okay. RPH pun sudah buku dua.
CRZ : alangkah bahagia kalau rajin saya dinilai melalui RPH. awak kena tahu, gadis seperti saya, hanya satu dalam sejuta. tidak mudah. baik awak mencari gadis yang mudah dibaca. hidup macam buku. buku mudah faham lebih diminati kerana isinya tidak berbelit dan terus kepada cerita sebenar. bukan seperti novel karya sastera yang kadang-kadang buat awak bosan mencari makna sebenar. perempuan benci apabila diri mereka dianggap bosan. jujur.
AB : susahnya mencari jodoh.
CRZ : kalau awak mencari yang sempurna hingga tua tidak akan berjumpa. carilah yang awak mampu untuk faham. yang kenal tanggungjawab. bukan cantik jadi kiraan. biarlah yang tahu ukur diri.


aku sering terjerat begini. kadang-kadang perkara sebegini buat aku kembali mencari penyebab hati aku yang luka. kerana aku tidak suka melukakan hati mereka yang bersedia. kerana aku sedar perit sakit rasa luka.


goodnite!


love, RZ.

# kami kembar hati dan perasaan.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t dan selamat malam Jumaat.


ihiks! seronok pula menghabiskan waktu petang dengan kembar tersayang, Nazihah Husin. hmm.. berseri-seri kawan-sampai-mati aku ni. yelah, orang bahagia... aku tengok pun aku bahagia. hiks!


nak dijadikan cerita, kitorang syok sharing story-gossip-etcetc. aku tersebut nama he-cannot-be-reveal-yet. OMG! susprisingly, nama jodoh dia pun SAMA uolsssss!!! tepuk dahi akuuuuu tadi. aku syak abang kedai oren boleh perasan tadi. aiseh.


dari segi figure, yeap, pun sama. itu yang buat aku pelik. kitorang ni kembar sesangat eh? hikhik. sorang mamat selatan. sorang pakcik utaghaaa bak anggg!! HAHAHA. *okay, he-cannot-be-reveal-yet seorang bertaraf pakcik tua yang bongkok tidak seberapa*


dalam bercerita-cerita, teringat ku teringattt tentang tema baju pengapit aku. hmmm.. aku rasa, aku pilih Emerald Green, baru ranchakkk!! hikhik.. siap berangan lagi, kalau boleh, aku nak dua kad jemputan. satu kad untuk Raja Muhaiyatdin dan Keluarga, satu kad lagi Raja Zainab dan Pasangan. eh. BERANGAN KAUUUUUU!! tapi sayang, pengapit laki bukan pasangan aku. TAKPE.


yang penting,,,,,, haruslah beginiii temanya :-----

carian Google.

tak kisahlah. as long as kau bahagia, aku tumpang sekaki. hikhik. takpelah tak dapat ngeteh dekat luar macam selalu. lepas ni ngeteh dekat rumah kelamin lahh iolsss!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....



selamat bermalam jumaat. manja-manja je... :)


love, RZ.

# Jiwang Kuasa 3000000

# Chicken Wrap Tortilla

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and happy Tuesday.


as i promise myself to make tortilla for breakfast today, i made it and ayah as always will condemn because he love mek's nasi lemak. HAHA. but he really proud of me and said, " well adik, today's achievement will be our next presentation on Hari Raya instead of my lovely mee rebus and your favourite spaghetti".


my brother, Boboy, said, "it's really delicious acik! best than toasted twister (well, i add. HAHA).

i may not good at looking, but once you bite me, you'll be mine!

i just use as simple as i could because on this end of month, my wallet doesn't cooperate with me well :(


so, the ingredients are,

one pack of potato tortilla (one pack equal to 5 pieces)
salads (as much as you wish)
onions (chopped diced)
marina tempura nuget (chopped)
sausages (or it will taste lot better if you use meatloaf)
cheeses (i use pepperoni and mozarella)
spices (thyme are my most favourite spice)
and mayonnaise (as much as you wish)


at first, i deep fried the nugget first and let the sausages oven baked. then i do the leceh things like chopped the onions, and salads. as the nugget well cooked, and sausages already baked, i will chopped them into pieces and heat the frying pan. i put a piece of tortilla into the frying pan and put all the ingredients altogether. all this i could done only 30 minutes. and tadaaaaa~~~ the breakfast on heat y'all!!



till then,


love, RZ.

# The Cuti

assalamualaikum w.b.t and greetings all.


dah mula cuti sekolah untuk pertengahan semester 2013. pejam celik 3 bulan dah sekolah. banyak benda berlaku meski 2013 baru suku masuk. hehe


aku pun sama. sekolah, rph, aktiviti ko-ku, pibg, eh banyaklah lagi. semua serba-serbi datang bergolek. kadang-kadang bila penat, aku fikir. "36 tahun lagi lama berbanding 3 bulan. apelah sangat penat sekarang, ye dakkkk??" so, aku secara positif, terus bangun. buat kerja dari menyembang. eh


kawan-kawan. tak banyak nak diluangkan masa. tak sempat. kerja banyak. nak makan pun kadang-kadang lupa. cano tu? haa~ itu yang kalau ada masa sikit-sikit aku curi sikit-sikit. ngeteh ke, lepak bilik ke, gosip ke. asalkan dapat jumpa. yang lain blok, maaflah. aku tak sampai lagi kaki ke sana. hikhik


dunia aku banyak dihabiskan untuk kerja. sembang kosong pun dengan rakan sekerja. sembang serius dengan mereka. usrah kononnya. temanya nak kipas bawah kepala je. isk isk isk. tapi seronok bila bekerja dengan orang yang tidak berkira. yang penting, what you give, you always get it back. :)


tengok. tajuk je the cuti. tapi cerita penuh dengan tempat kerja. adakah ini namanya cinta? ~.~

apa-apapun, selamat bercuti untuk kawan-kawan yang bercuti. tak apalah. yang tak cuti akan dapat jugak hari untuk bercuti.


till then,


love, RZ.

# Fly..High..

assalamualaikum w.b.t and hello friends.


remember, how i am so hard trying to forget my secret love?


well, today, i try my best to move on. using my cute adorable flirting skills, zapss! it works! thanks to All Women Stalk by helping me to control the moment.

i read it. yes. it kind of my personal research. whoever know me, i am big time loser. i will spoiled every good time moments and crushed every single efforts from somebody (and yes, a guy, precisely). i always acting poser, and it never long-last. Laily know how it happened, right sister?

today, it was kinda shocked that he who-i-suppose-not-to-reveal-yet had cancelled his plan because of my "Alaaaaaa" message. i am just playing around, makes some hambar jokes, but he takes it as serious. awwww~~ we're out somewhere, having his breakfast (oh, here i was look like some noobs) and watching a movie called Olympus Has Fallen which i am sooooo freaking excited because of Gerard Butler plays as hero!!

but before the date happened, i was jumping here and there, sms-ing with my bff, what to do, what to wear, is it too much if i'm wearing a wedges etc etc. but when i came up, i realize, it is not so hard to be myself. i just wear what i want to wear (but it also tips from AllWomanStalk). we're chatting, telling how his life so far, what makes me today and lots on (which i think it is too much to share).


we are just these close, and i hope Allah will lead the best on my life. hopefully. aameen.



love, .RZ.

# so young and fragile.

assalamualaikum w.b.t and hello pals.

i've got a news my dear 13y/o brother was fainting in his school late this afternoon. thanks to Ayah for letting me know about that.


well friends, do you have brothers or sisters?
how do you feel about them when they are out from home maybe to school or having great times with friends? to tell truth, i put huge worried when it happens.


my siblings started from me are very fond to each other. we're doing everything yet fight and get jealous of each other. we have the power of siblings to precise. and for that, i keep worrying about them.


Laily, oh. she is the only not-so-little sister of me. even she has the gigantism size, it never help myself think she could stand at one place without any of us. oh. just a stupid notion. then, i ask her to think twice when the boarding school issue's in. i just want her to get great memories and experience to know people and get a little older than her age. besides, she's the only sister i have. i want the best for her.


Boboy. he is sweet and fragile. he is the most sensitive person in my family. he always keep his anger inside. he is my cry baby. he is the most i have worried about. he has the dark look with a round shape and wearing glass. i am okay with that, because i love him, i was the one who look after him when my parents went to Mecca once before. he's round because i always cook whatever he want. but to be true, i'm also worried about his physical look. sometimes, the TV's tell me how cruel the world is. they treat people like that person don't have right to living life peacefully. that is what i'm worried about. i'm afraid if his seniors in junior high school treat him badly. i'm afraid if he gets bullied. i'm afraid if all negatives put him down. oh, i am just afraid.


Azam. my younger brother. 14y/o out from my age. he is lucky. everything he wanted, he will get it. he also brave but not so the brain. i always worried how he treat other people. speak what he want to speak sometimes it helps, some other time it will hurts. he's round, glassy and taller. he has the criteria of the bullies. oh crap! that is the MOST I EVER WORRIED! i'm afraid if he lose his track when he get surrounded by the bully people.



well friends, i don't care to share my worries, because i know, every kids is young and fragile. they need us as we need them as the apple of our eyes. i know, sometimes it is just too ridiculous, but somehow, the worries brought me to be a better sister.


with that, love your kids. concern about their needs.


love, RZ.

# Bodoh Kuasa Lapan

jangan terlalu bodoh.

orang dah sua, kena ambil.

apa yang kau kejarkan?

sedang yang dikendong berciciran?

kau buta.

lauk terhidang depan mata.

kau persia.

kau tuli.

pinggan elok tersusun rapi.

kau tak endah, meninggi diri.

kau nak anak jawa.

anak jawa nak kau ke?

hijau kuning dah mula bicara.

nah, inilah peluangnya.

tapi.

kau masih bodoh kuasa lapan.

tunggu si dia entah sampai kapan.

nasihat aku.

esok, mula semula.

susun bicara.

semoga jodoh kau, dia.

love, .MS.

# WW - . -

google-it.

# face palm

# over think

i may over think.

i may over act.

i may over rude.

but deep inside,

i may missed look.

# release and forget.

just a good evening. Assalamualaikum everyone.



I just saw him. yeap. him. my 5 years part time lover. and his new car. and his gf. whatever. the point is, I realize, over these 5 years, you taught me how to be a good Raja Zainab. how to be a better person. and how to look some point from some other perspective.

"dear you.
i know, it is hard to forget you. 3 years wasn't a short period for me. you have become my secret love before, and this 5th year really the best year for me to forget.  i know, we have been through rough and plough together. sharing thought and everything. yes, i admit it is hard for me to forget.

by seeing you, living your life happily with your love one, makes me realize, i have to move on. yes. since the last day i know you never be mine, i told myself moving on is the best. but still, it never happen. i am still looking for you, yet still need you to be my wake up call every time i need to done my assignments. oh, how i miss you boy.

remember, when i told you my friend likes you? you just follow my advice. do made a call and have a chat with her. deep inside, i just tear my own heart. but it is okay. i chose this way. and always thanks to you because always be by my side even i know, there is no way for me to make this feeling real.

and remember when i need you while i'm working at Ukay's? and how i need you to accompany me to Istana Budaya? and how i need you to brought me to see Anis when she needs me right before she got operated then we go to Damansara to get your advance birthday present? how i miss our days. really miss that.

there a so many memories between us. and i think this is the perfect time for me to move on. i need to find somebody that can place the missing puzzle. i have plenty of friends, but i don't really found some other you. maybe i am choosy, or maybe there is always you inside me. don't worry, i will let myself moving on and get the happiness as you do.

thank you sir. you are the only best teacher.


regards, your only Raja Zainab."

# pukau.

diam.

observe dari jauh.

senyum.

hai, sebagai pemula.

aku perempuan.

mudah terpana dengan keindahan ciptaan Tuhan.

sedikit geli.

tapi aku tahu

aku mula berangan kau mula dulu.

hai.

nak panggil apa?

aku mula jadi lipas kena spray.

macam geli impian jadi nyata.

dalam otak nak jawab apa.

tapi sayang

mulut tak sekolah.

jenab je.

cukop.

dah tak ada nama sweet lagi?

atau kau memang nak tunjuk

kau masih bernama klasik?

show off.

jenab?

jarang dengar nama tu.

unik.

dan 

senang nak ingat.

tolong jangan bagi aku angau.

tolong jangan memukau.

meski ada daya tarikan magnet melampau.

belum masa untuk kau aku igau.

tapi. kau comel. #JanjiPengakap.

ps, .RZ.

# kau saja boleh rasa..

Aku lebih bengis dari sang naga

Tapi bisa nangis semata demi cinta

Suaraku keras tak berbahasa

Kerna aku rimas gedik mengada-ngada

fin

# nasi lemak tasik kegemaran kita?

aku tak pasti. entah bagaimana perbualan menjadi semakin intim. yang aku pasti, kegemaran kita sama. nasi lemak tasik. mungkin bertahun makanan itu kau hadap, dan tauke kedai pula makcik aku. benar kata kau. pusing-pusing, kita pasti jumpa semula. entah bagaimana aku mahu elak.

sungguh. aku memang mahu elak dari perasaan perasan..

kau suka bungkus sambal resipi rahsia keluarga aku. dan suruh aku bawakan kau nanti. konon mahu imbas kenangan masa studi. 

"oh, awak pun suka try makan lah ni?"

iye. sebab tu awak boleh tengok saiz saya bagaimana. ah. aku tak jawab macam tu. jawapan aku sering ke arah membangga diri. 

"aah. sebab tu masak jadi kemahiran. kalau tak reti masak, macam mana nak makan?"

ba betul. tak ada langsung kecomelan masa menjawab. tetap nak menang. tetap nak nampak cool. tetap pilih untuk memboyish. eh. ada ke memboyish? ah. tetap aku tak comel bila menjawab. 

tak apa. tak comel pun, aku masih hidup normal. syukur. <konon pujuk diri>

tapi aku masih tak paham. kenapa nasi lemak tasik yang kita sama-sama gila?

p.s : ba tu maksudnya gila.

love, .RZ.